K imma get that off my front page 'coz it's scaring the kids away... c:
SO, HOW'S ABOUT SOME SAP THIS TIME?
Nah, you don't have to read this. This is merely a confession journal for =SinfulShinrai. BECAUSE I LOVE HER TO BITS and we've been together for a year now k.

And because I suck at expressing my love, have some first times, bb.
They're not in order 'coz... come what may.





I remember;

The first time I met you. 'Lil emo kid. Pfft. You're interesting though and I wanted to get to know you more.

The first time we talked, it was so awkward yet, exciting. It was summer and you were dying, so we'd lay low for a bit. But, I waited for a comeback and it was worth it.

The first time we hid from everyone just to be together and talk in private. Otherwise, we would private message each other whenever we couldn't do so. Suspicious much.

The first time we mic-ed, it was so hilarious. Even when you convinced me that you and your cousin had similar voices, I could clearly tell which one was yours. YOU'RE THE CLOSER ONE, DUH. _Jkilu.

The first time you said you'd kill me when I told you I found you through "King Me!", it made me laugh so hard. I enjoyed your embarrassment. And yet I feel so proud that you're still working on that comic because you're just that amazing and full of potential despite what you say.

The first time you said you wanted a lullaby, I went and composed one for you. I totally regret doing this btw, but every time you say thank you or a simple "yay", it's worth the humiliation.

The first time we stayed up so late just because we wanted to get Analogue and Lakyle married on FeelRO. It was so horrible and conversations with moaning fishes shall never be spoken of ever again.

The first time we slept on mic because it was an accident. It soon became a habit and then, a routine.

The first time I heard you sobbing broke my heart to pieces. I would've hugged you, but I couldn't. I would've lend you my shirt for you to dry your tears off too, but I'm no where close. And even if this shows how far apart we are, I promise you, I'll break that barrier for you. You're just the drive and the only one I need.

The first time we were treated as an obsession was painful, but true. So what if we are obsessed with each other? Others should just deal with it, full stop. Unless they're jealous, then that can't be helped, right?

The first time I read all your journals, I was contemplating on how to tell you how stalker-ish I was (still am). But, I told you anyway. And the reaction was so funny, it burns. I still know which journal you deleted btw.

The first time we fought crushed me to bits, but we had more than just arguments to let go that easily. And it makes me happy that we both know that by heart.

The first time I cried so hard to you was embarrassing, but it brought me closer to you.

The first time I got jealous was really absurd, but you put me in place and I needed that. Even if I still get jealous once in a while, but it's no big, you can perfectly tell the moment I am, right?

The first time you were suspected for H1N1, I couldn't stay put. I was in the hall with 499 other trainee participants and I cried. Funny, right? But, I did. You know I'm a crybaby and I'd do anything to be in contact with you until you're confirmed stable.

The first time I lost my patience couldn't be avoided. I snapped at the most trivial of things, but really bb, I don't need a reason to want to be there for you. Even if we're not talking at all. I'm stubborn and I just want to be with you, no matter what mood you're in because I have all the time in the world to wait.

The first time I fussed over your health was over the top. It's funny considering either you or I will fall into some sickness during every month anniversary count. But, you'd better not die, you hear me? Because that's when I die too.

The first time we had drama on both sides was stressful. But, I had you to trust and likewise. I honestly needed nothing else.

The first time you disconnected from the Internet panicked me. I would just sit here stoned and wait for you to return. Goddamn net.

The first time I sent you roses, you spazzed when you woke up and I was shocked at how fast the delivery was. Seriously, within 2 hours? Holy shit. I sent you 2 more after that just because.

The first time I wanted to get our matching rings carved, I got so anxious that I don't even know what to put on it. In the end it shortened to "Forever Yours". Last minute creativity ftw.

The first time I read your love notes. You might say that you suck at them, but they make me love you more every time.

The first time you said you liked hearing me speak in my language. I hated it though. I hate my language and you know it. But, if it's for you, then fine. I'll suck it up. Besides, I can insult you and you'd never kno-- I mean. c:

The first time we had separation anxiety, kills. It was crazy LOL.

The first time you apologized like mad when the headphones accidentally broke. DUDE WTF IT'S FINE K. Aww, but your apologies were so adorable though. /CREEPER I'm just glad you liked them. Arsenic-blue rytryt.

The first time you'd get upset and that would upset me too. Love affects and boy, does it make me anglyyy. I'd stand up for you any day k, you know it.

The first time I wrote that confession journal felt good. Omg just reading it makes me wanna /wrist myself now, but hey, love bites.

The first time I-- JACKDIRT.



_{...K I'm done being sappy, you can tell.}

I love you, k? ♥♥ Don't forget, faggot.
Happy 1 Year Anniversary, bb!


PS: Working on this atm. All our characters combined during the whole year span.


And a GODDAMN HUGE THANK YOU to everyone who sang, wished, drew, offered their souls for my birthday. I love you guys lots k. So goddamn much. Including everyone who commented on my rage journal. IT WASN'T NECESSARY AT ALL considering it was me releasing my long-kept anger, but it was so sweet of you guys k. I appreciate it hardcore. HUGS FOR YOU GUYS K, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE NNNH. <3333333333 I swear, I'll dedicate you guys in my next one k? c: